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Sunday, 20 January 2013 || 05:12
Hi.. I've been feeling a little weird these days. I dont know what's wrong with me but there's just this feeling inside me.
What if i was depressed?
What if i said, im not okay?
Im so stressed out man.. It's like reflecting back on my actions. I felt that i'm making everybody hate me. Those who liked me, im sorry that i was too blunt. Im sorry that i hurt you. I just didn't want to give anyone false hopes. I dont want you to end up getting more hurt. I feel that no one likes me, no one cares about me. I think it's just my own thinking. Come on, be positive right? But let's just snap back to reality, im nothing special. Really. Just a typical girl.
This is extremely stupid, crying at night. Hey, i know. Who doesnt? Im sure everyone does cry at night at some points of their lives. Feeling that i'm not good enough and such. Really, im not good enough. Not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not smart enough. Alright, i accept the fact that im a big sized retard who wears spectacles. Imagine me. That's so... EW right?
I hate it when people just blurt out things that hurt me/other people. OUCH. Actually, i might look real confident and such but actually, im not. Im afraid, im scared. Insecurities. The GREATEST point that i've always been shot at, EYEBAGS.
Hey, it's not like i have a choice or something right? I know i have it and what can i do? Nothing. They're naturals. No matter how much sleep i get and how much water i drink, they'll still be there! So, stop saying about these bags because insecurities would start flowing into every cell of my body. Alright, no one will ever see this blog post so whatever, let's just take it as im just saying.
Who doesnt want to be popular and pretty and stuff like that? Having a slim figure, smartass brain, cheerful personality, perfect eyesight, totally fashionable and cool... Everyone would want that okay. Me too. But too bad, we doesnt have these features. I dont understand why people undergo surgery to change their face. ENTIRELY. If it's a lil, i dont mind but everything? You're changing EVERYTHING god gave to you. Aren't we supposed to cherish what god gives us? HMM, south korea.. Anyway, it's none of my business. :( Back to topic then.
I dont understand why human beings are like that. Why do we judge? Okay, i do judge too. Sorry to all those who i judged before. I have to stop it. if possible. I just want to be a good girl and live my life. 100 spiking steps everyday at home, i think it's showing great results isn't it? :) I'm glad that i can play in the competition. I fought for my position and i got it. PHEW. I didn't jumped in vain. WEEEEEE. Whenever i spiked over a nice ball, i would jump in joy. But at the same time, i would wonder if anyone found me arrogant. Hah, just being that super sensitive me. Competition tmr, invisible readers, wish me luck alright? ^^
Enough about these emotional stuffs and such. Actually, there's more to it but i'll just stop here. Pictures up next.
Im so god damn heavy you know.. 53kg isn't a great weight to boast around. Lemme get to 50kg alright. PLEASEEEEEEEEEE.
Do what i want and love the fact that i did it. :)
'O's this year. :( Gonna start working hard. GAMBATTE.
Cringe at the sound of rollercoaster. Phobia of heights hello. I want to be brave. I want to do something that i didn't have the courage to do before.
Already done. :) My fengfeng has it. <3
Being the top few students counting backwards, i need to work harder for grades.
Too much quarrels, need to stop.
I want to say, Hi everybody, my name is Sarah and im proud of myself. ;)
Fuck everything that stands in my way.
Being called a crybaby isn't good at all. :(
That's what youths do right?
Blue dye ! <3 i want i want i want !
Luckily there's only one me. If not, my dad is going to declare bankrupt.
Have abs and a toned skin. <3 pretty please.
Have to resist temptation of takoyaki. :(
People, here's an advice for all of you.
: Dont call other people crybaby because they didn't cry because they want to. The tears just proved that they are sad. Calling them a crybaby is like scolding them because of the fact that they are sad. WHUT..
Yup that's all. Think twice before saying anything alright. Bye guys.
